Contemplative Writing part 2

 

A year ago I went to my therapist. “I feel like there is something just around the corner that I am trying to think that I haven’t thought yet. It feels like it would be important to discover if I can.”

“I understand.” Replied my therapist. “What do you think you are about to discover?”

I wasn’t sure. I knew I was sure I was on the verge of a personal discovery, as she said, but I wasn’t sure what it was. A few times it would come up in therapy, always feeling like something important was on the tip of my tongue, but never knowing for certain what it was.

This morning I think I realized something though. The feeling that I am on the verge of thinking something important actually doesn’t seem to just be one thing but any number of ideas and discoveries just around the bend, if I contemplate. The question changes from I wonder what my important self discovery may be to I have a limitless number of ideas and thoughts that always are accessible and really will change and improve my life. I just have to find myself in a place where I can tune into them.

Often that means turning off whatever media I am playing, closing my mouth, and listening to what bubbles up for me. Sitting with it in silence and nature are a big part of this process.